Intertwined

I am a product of a mom and a dad, their genes are intertwined in my DNA. Growing up, I had a false belief that I am half good / half bad because I believed that my mom is good and my dad is bad. I’ve always struggled with the fear that one day my bad side would completely take over me, but those thoughts are lies which I now can discredit. I can’t change the fact that I am a child of my mom and dad. But my actions, thoughts, belief, and happiness are a choice. The voices that tells me that “I can’t do it” are the voices of demons. It’s important to be able to hear our thoughts and feelings as voices, rather than believing that those are who we are. If we can hear our thoughts and feelings as voices, we can differentiate who’s saying those voices in our head and heart. My Shepherd calls to me so I know His warm loving affirming secure voice. Knowing His voice is important because if there are negative voices injecting lies into my head, I would be able to discern it as a voice, rather than letting it define who I am. If I’m not feeling peace and joy, it means that my identity is under attack from the enemy. It’s important to know who I am and know who can give me my true identity. I hear my Shepherd calling out to me, He calls me “very very good”. BAHHHHH~

Sword

I come not to bring peace, but to bring a sword.
Warrior is His name.

Love Wings

“All You Need Is Love”

There’s a book that I like called 5 Love Languages (amazon.com). The book basically says that there are 5 general categories of love.

1.) physical affirmation
2.) words of affirmation
3.) quality time
4.) gifts
5.) act of service

The way we receive can be different from the ones we need. For me, I like giving “words of affirmation” and like receiving “physical affirmation”. I least like receiving “gifts” and least like giving “act of service”. The way we give and receive is very important, it’s like breathing “carbon” when we actually need “oxygen”.

I started to come up with other Love Languages such as:

6.) inclusiveness (sharing friends)
7.) intercession (praying for them)
8.) patience (love is patient, love is kind)
9.) listening (being able to listen is very important)
10.) empathy (being able to feel and let others to feel understood)
11.) boldness (a bold sacrificial act of love can move the heart)

There are more than just 5 or 11 so I drew this picture to show that there’s more ways of receiving and giving than we know it.
The ultimate lover would give all 100 types of love.

Chip

When my little brother was in 5th grade he liked a girl. He confessed to the girl through AIM that he liked her. Next day at school he was too embarrassed to talked to her. In 6th grade the girl started to like my brother but he stopped liking her, but they were still friends. One day she told my brother that she’s moving away to another country, so she asked him to take care of her beloved Chip, a Parakeet bird. My brother came home, asked if we can have a bird, and we said “yes”. I was excited to meet our new bird. In my mind, I thought that Chip was going to be really energetic and playful. When Chip came to our home, he was really shy, opposite of what I imagined. He’s friendly, but likes to keep everything to himself, very quite around people. He’s only loud when no one is watching. We call him our introverted self-absorbed bird because he also likes to look and adore himself in the mirror for a long long time everyday.

OH! But an interesting thing about Chip is that he likes to play with our dog, Pooka. He doesn’t like people, but he likes Pooka. He’ll fly around and tease my dog. Sometimes my dog would catch him with her mouth so it looks like the Chip was being eaten by Pooka. Kinda scary, because I don’t want to see Chip’s head on the floor one day. Pooka is harmless, but we don’t want to see any accidents happen, so Chip stays in his cage now.